Today I feel a surge of anger.
Maybe I am healing. Maybe I found a point of liberation.
But that was only for a while. I was so angry that I started shivering and I could literally feel the anger underneath my skin. So angry I felt the urge to go running in that instance.
It was just for a while though.
Because for the most of it and as of right now, I feel like I am just floating. As if my soul is floating near my functional body. My mind is just in air. I don’t know what to feel. It’s like I feel nothing. Just nothingness.
I am numb.
The only thing I am craving for right now is to go into a fight. A spar.
I want to punch something. And I want to feel the blood gushing from my nose.
Maybe then, I will feel.